Dejected / Still Inspired

“If it’s over, let it go and

Come tomorrow it will seem

So yesterday, so yesterday

I’m just a bird that’s already flown away

Laugh it off, let it go and

When you wake up it will seem

So yesterday, so yesterday

Haven’t you heard that I’m gonna be okay”

Those were the lyrics of Hilary Duff’s ‘So Yesterday’. I guess when it’s over; well when you are never able to reach for it…the best thing is to let it go. And when tomorrow finally comes, everything that you have been through; all the ups and downs, every picture of dawn and dusk, they are all your yesterday.

I received a text message on my cell phone from one of the school’s magazine editorial board members this morning. It seems that I didn’t make it to the editorial board this year. Well, the little voice in my head had told me that I would never be in the school’s editorial board. I didn’t expect anything much since the short story that I’ve sent in last year (after numerous editing by the teacher in-charged and typing after typing of hundreds of words) wasn’t in this year’s issue.

At least I didn’t hold a high hope. So, the impact of the text message didn’t hit me that hard. Expect for the worse. That’s what that I’ve recently learnt. From looking at your reflection in the mirror and getting your History exam results…expect for the very worse. You will be surprised how much it will help. But then again, I am a pessimistic teenager. You might think differently if you are a very optimistic person.

So, I went to school like usual. Things had been okay until after recess when one of my nemesis asked me if there is a meeting later on for the school’s editorial board (it seems he is in it). I told him I don’t know because I’m not in it. Then, he asked me again. “Hellooooooooo!! I’m not in the Ed-Board! Does it ring any bell?! Do I have to make myself any clearer? Not…in…the…Ed-Board!” I told him. I am extremely sure that he was gloating after that. Oh well, if there’s Yang there’s definitely Yin.

“With every step you take everyday, you are closer to the inevitable death. Remember, the most precious thing in the world is the time that you have been through. Be it 5 seconds ago or 5 years ago, you can never go back to it”

That was what my school’s counsellor said to all of the students in my school on the official Monday assembly. It’s true that we are taking a step closer to death every single day. Why do I sulk over something minor when I could get on with life, right?

I might not be in the school’s editorial board, but while I was preparing to be in it…I learned a few things. I found what that I truly love…something that I’m ‘o-kay’ at.

I found writing.

I might feel dejected but there is something behind everything. I am still inspired to write. So much more right now.