So Be It

The March Monthly Test is over and that means that I have a little bit of time in my hands until tomorrow before Monday arrives and brings with it a whole truckload of assignments and homework. But hey…who am I to complain? I mean homework, assignments and extracurricular activities are after all a part of a Malaysian students’ life. And my point was further reinstated by one of the questions in last Wednesday’s English paper where it was said that teachers were one of the reasons that cause stress among students. Tell me again about pointing out the obvious.

The exam week had been pretty hectic…no thanks to my nature of doing things at the very last moment. I mean at school I will sit for like 3 papers and then once I get home and after lunch and all that, I resume back to my studies and memorised and tried to understand a million facts and formula. Phew…I am just glad that I will be given a rest until tomorrow. Lolx.

At school, I am feeling like I am being push aside by some of my peers. Maybe its just this feeling that comes with the whole package of exam stress. I don’t know. Maybe I am better at being one’s enemy than one’s friend. I mean…oh forget about it.

There are some things that are better kept to yourself. I’m sure I am just being over-paranoid about nothing in particular. Anyway, if a group of people keep their distance from you just because of the words that flow from one half of a story rather than the rest of the story…I guess you have finally seen the true colours of those around you.

  I might not be on good terms with someone at the moment right now. But then again, this rough edge is just supposed to be between me and that someone. Therefore, when someone asked me if there is anything going on between me and that someone, my reply is "Nothing. Seriously, what did you think happened?". But of course that would be my reply. Just because I am denying things doesn’t mean that the other party will do the same thing. I might say that nothing happened but at the other end of the room I might be described as a horrible villain that is disrupting harmony.

  So what if I am being perceived as the "bad guy" in this dilemma? Would that bother me? Would that cause any cosmic changes in my world? Okay…so maybe I am lying if I say that I am not bothered. But these things happened. If I am to be regarded as the guy who is causing all this trouble…so be it. At least I know the truth…and the truth is enough to protect me from all this negativity. If I am to be perceived in such a bad way, I can always take comport that that boy is a fictional character who had been judged wrongly. I am me. Nothing is going to change that fact. Furthermore, it is only during this time that I will get to know who is true and who is not. Who is real and who is fake. Who is smiling and who is crying.

  I am not trying to gain your sympathy. Please don’t get me wrong. You are an individual of your own. Even if I shout out to your face loudly and say "Hey you idiot. Snap out!! What is wrong with your judgment?!". You might still believe the other half of the story.

Don’t expect to hear the other half of the story from me anytime soon. You will only get a superficial reply if you do ask. Stay with the first half of the story…if you believe it. So be it. If you think that person is telling you the whole truth. So be it. If you think that I am the cause of the problem. So be it. I might be wrong…that person might be wrong…both of us might be wrong. But you know what? So be it. So be it.

Post-CNY

I got accepted in the school’s Editorial Board!! Woooo-hoooo!!!

  It’s been a while since I wrote anything in this little blog of mine. Well, let’s see what that I have been up to all this while. Hmm…for starters, I went back to two places during the Chinese New Year this year. I went back to Terengganu and my favourite place on Earth…Penang!

  Lolx, I know you’ve probably heard of this like a thousand times and all that but Penang absolutely, totally ROCKS!! It is like one of those places all of us Malaysians must be proud of because the people there are so diverse and yet they are so alike. Well, you might not agree with me. But then again, my point of view is that of a partial-Penangite( I am after all a Kuala Lumpurian).

  Anyway, the Chinese New Year celebration this year had been pretty surreal for me. This is the first time that I celebrated the CNY at two of my hometowns. And do you know what that means? More ang pows!! Lolx. No lar, the real reason that make this celebration more special for me is that I was able to celebrate the Chinese New Year with both sides of the family. To me, family is really important. You have to preserve the family ties (especially with your extended family) so that there will always be this feeling of familiarity among you and your family members and instead of talking about the weather with your cousins, you will be talking about the latest show on the silver screen or the last episode of Grey’s Anatomy. So here is a message for you guys: Don’t be strangers with your family members.

  I was at Terengganu from CNY’s eve to the 2nd day of CNY. My family and I left Terengganu for Penang on the 2nd day of CNY. While back at Penang, I had this amazing opportunity to observe the Chinese traditions during the CNY. Like on the 5th day of CNY during the night, my mom, my bro and I followed my aunt to the Snake Temple and prayed. It was really crowded that night, thought not as crowded as the year before. It was really fun. There were Chinese opera, God of Prosperity and err…some snakes. There was just this small little snake at one of the section of the temple. My mom told me that the temple was once full of snakes and that you have to watch your steps so as not to step on the snakes that are slithering on the stone floor of the temple. It’s just that due to the modernization of the city, fewer and fewer snakes had visited the temple. Or was it the presence of some tourists who bugs the snake? Hmmm….

  My grandmother’s birthday was also celebrated during the Chinese New Year celebration. Her birthday was celebrated on the 7th day of CNY. The whole family went out for an eight course meal at one of those Chinese restaurants at the heart of Georgetown. During her birthday celebration, my grandma will lay out ang pows on the table for her sons, daughters, sons-in-law, daughters-in-law, grandchildren and great grandchildren (that would be Joel). And among these ang pows, there is one “special” ang pow which contains a greater amount of money. Last time when I was a kid, my cousins and I said that who ever who gets that “special” ang pow will be luckier. Lolx.

  Times had surely passed by. I am now in my teenage years and most of my cousins had grown up and went to further their studies at the groves of acadame. Well…all good things must come to an end. I am not implying that things are not good anymore now. But when you’re a child, your greatest worry is to catch Barney or Power Rangers on television. Things are so simple back then. Sometimes I do wish that I was in that phase of time, when things are a little less complicated. Well welcome to the life of a bookaholic teenager. Where my passion for life is good fiction and my goal is to keep on striving to live. Life is short. Live your life to the fullest!! And while you’re doing it, enjoy!!!

  Now, fast forward to the present. Today is the second day of photo shoot for the school magazine. Anyway, I got to know that I had been accepted in the school’s Ed-Board and the feeling is just so elevating. Well, the news is just enough to blow away the dark cloud of what that happened later on in school. It was like I was given a shot of morphine and that “high” just makes me immune to some stuff that happened later on. I’d rather not go in detail about those “stuffs” though. Some stuff in life is better kept in the dark. After all blissful ignorance could save you from certain things in life. But then again, being a Science student, to be kept in blissful ignorance is like walking across the road full of cars with your eyes blind folded.

  Anyway, I don’t want to bother you with my problems. I’m going to stop here right now. Got to get back to my Physics project. I just can’t resist this guilty pleasure to write in this blog. Till then, enjoy life along the way!!

  Don’t let the fact of not being invited gives you the sheer disappointment of being uninvited. Anyway the difference between invited and uninvited is just the syllable of ‘UN’. Support United Nation’s cause and "Say No To War!". I am delirious. Ignore me.